Hope

The stench of my failure is filling my lungs.
Sorrow seems to consume my thoughts,
As my mind wrestles with this condemnation that I can’t escape.
The mistakes of my past become the only reality that I know.
I come to realize that all I am is a shadow of what I could have been.

Now my tears are the only comfort I can find,
And I ponder this meaningless existence that has been my life.
I begin to reason if I should persist,
In this never-ending cycle of failures and intangible dreams.
As I struggle with my thoughts,
I cry out for rest in this storm of my anguish.

I realize that all this world had to offer me has left me empty.
Though I still search for something that will ease my suffering.
I wonder how can there be reason for living,
If all you are and have can be stripped from you in an instance.
Purpose seems to have become only a hopeless dream,
As my will has been spent and wasted in pursuit of happiness in this life.

The only strength that is left in me is spilling out,
As my voice cries out into the emptiness of my life.
I soon understand that it is in vain,
For the darkness soon begins to overwhelm my senses.
It seems that all I can do now is give into the void, and end my suffering.

All of a sudden my eyes fall upon a single star in the emptiness of space.
It soon pierces the darkness around me,
And its light fills the emptiness of my soul.
The tears of my sorrow disappeared,
And for once I felt a peace that I could not explain.
I ask myself, what could this be that offers my worthless soul hope?

Before I had a chance to think, my reality soon faded,
And my thoughts become no more my own,
as a vision fills my mind.
I find myself upon a hill,
and my vision is clouded by a dense fog.
I suddenly feel rain drops begin to pour down on me.
When my mind clears, I hear a voice crying out in agony.
Yet it was filled with a love that I had never sensed before.

“Father forgive them for they know not what they do.”
As I hear the words, my body gives way and I fall on my face.
Tears pour from eyes as I hear His last words, “It is finished.”
The fog around me soon fades, but I am unable to find the will to move.

After several moments of struggling with my thoughts,
I find the strength to raise my head.
The form of a cross slowly fills my vision.
It is drenched in the blood and tears of an innocent man.
Whose body was torn and broken for my transgressions.

Before I can comprehend what I am saying, I cry out,
“My God, My God why did you suffer for a worthless failure such as I? I am not worthy of this love!”

Then as my words fade into the midst,
My reality once again changes.
I now find myself in a valley,
And as I look around I see an empty tomb.
It seems that here I find rest,
A peace that I had longed for.
Words could not explain this moment of pure bliss.
All at once, I felt a hand touch my shoulder.
I then hear a voice, “My son, why hast thou forsaken my sacrifice?”

Tears overwhelm me as I come to realize,
That I have been living my life with vain ambitions.
The price had been paid so that I might be found,
So that I might find a reason worth living and dying for.
I now knew what had to be done, and I fell to my knees.
“Father I sacrifice to you my will, I am your servant.
Here I am Lord use me...”


I now live for something beyond this mortal world.
For I have a duty to live as a beacon of hope to others.
His sacrifice gave me a hope and a passion for living this life.

I only hope that you also may find the peace,
And fulfillment that I have found in knowing my Savior Jesus Christ.

Though remember that this road is a hard one, it is said to be the road less traveled for one reason: it goes against human nature and reasoning.
Never forget that it is never too late,
For if you stumble He is always there to pick you up,
All you have to do is let Him.